On March 25, 2007 I
passed the 2 year mark in this ministry. Last year for the first year
of ministry I spent it at a good sized night of vision dinner at a nice
hotel in Kansas City. This year as much as I'd like to have had a dinner again like that I didn't feel God leading me to
organize another dinner for this year's 2nd anniversary.
Instead I gathered with a friend and his wife and another friend as I cooked us mexican food on the 24th to celebrate as they were in town and we played a board game. Then on the 25th I spent it alone - just me and God. No glammer, nothing fancy just me and God. It was pretty special. I was in awe. I don't know of too many histories of ministries that kick off like that for the 2nd year.
Instead I gathered with a friend and his wife and another friend as I cooked us mexican food on the 24th to celebrate as they were in town and we played a board game. Then on the 25th I spent it alone - just me and God. No glammer, nothing fancy just me and God. It was pretty special. I was in awe. I don't know of too many histories of ministries that kick off like that for the 2nd year.
It wasn't where
I expected to be after two years.
Alone and for the most part back at
ground zero.
Yet, I wasn't back at ground zero - I was in a place where
I have learned a lot about ministry. I have learned what it is and what
it is not. I have learned you have to be careful you don't run people over to get
where you are going in ministry because that isn't ministry. That's an agenda and it is
dangerous and I've seen that in action and I've seen how it effects lives in a very hurtful way.
I realize as time goes by how much more I have to learn that I thought I had left to learn. I consider myself truly blessed this year to be at ground zero with this knowledge. I can't imagine where I would be if I was in a big ministry now without this knowledge. When we get into something big - it isn't easy to get out or change the direction it is going. I know what I am working towards and what I'm not and that's a good feeling.
I don't know where God is leading in the near future, but I am at peace now knowing He is in control and He has put his hand of protection on this ministry and me. At times I get scared and I'm afraid - but deep down I know God is there.
What I do know is this is to be a ministry that is life giving for those in it and those ministered to by it. That should be the core of what ministry is really about.
I realize as time goes by how much more I have to learn that I thought I had left to learn. I consider myself truly blessed this year to be at ground zero with this knowledge. I can't imagine where I would be if I was in a big ministry now without this knowledge. When we get into something big - it isn't easy to get out or change the direction it is going. I know what I am working towards and what I'm not and that's a good feeling.
I don't know where God is leading in the near future, but I am at peace now knowing He is in control and He has put his hand of protection on this ministry and me. At times I get scared and I'm afraid - but deep down I know God is there.
What I do know is this is to be a ministry that is life giving for those in it and those ministered to by it. That should be the core of what ministry is really about.
