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The Second Miracle - Why We Should Not Give Up

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By Matt on October 31, 2009 11:06 AM 0 0 Vote 0 Votes

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How often do you take a big step of faith and find the outcome was not what you expected? 

I have learned that rarely will the outcome of a step of faith be what I expect and that there is often a lag time in the fullness of what follows. 

In my last entry I shared how I gave my first large love offering just over a week after asking God who to give it. 

While the joy I felt was instant the response I was hoping for to confirm I had heard God right I never really got the first time. 

It was days later when that person thanked me as they were shocked and didn't know what to say that night I gave it to them.

I was ready for the possibility that the outcome may not be what I thought it would be and set out to ask, listen and obey as best I knew how and trusted God to take care of the rest.  I had hoped and prayed that God would confirm I had got it right in having the person I gave it to in telling me they had been praying or in need of that money and I would then know God had directed me to help them. They didn't say anything for a few days after that and were shocked I had helped them. In fact the next day another friend asked me for prayer because their car was broke and they were out of money until later in the month. I told them I would pray and the thought that I had heard God wrong and gave to the wrong person came to mind at the same time. 

The enemy is quick to try and get us to doubt God. I knew I had in the right motive and heart and in faith given that gift the day before to my friend though. So I prayed for my friend and went on in peace that God was going to provide for my friend and she would be ok. The next day when I was buying groceries and also bought a t-shirt the thought came to me if I can buy these things when I have food at home I could eat and I don't need that t-shirt why could I not help my friend and her husband too? I began to think about that the entire day. 

Later that night I was reading a book on hearing God and working with the Holy Spirit to be used and do things that can only be done with the help of the Holy Spirit. When I read some things on how we should not over think when we feel God is speaking to us and obey if we feel God leading us to do something. So I picked up my phone and texted my friend I wanted to help them. 

What happened next was very encouraging as my friend said I was blessing them so much and that she had just been crying out to the Lord for the past hour asking for help. I was so encouraged as I felt I had heard from God and acted and my friend who had been crying out for God after being driven to a real state of need! She was encouraged because she had seen God answer her prayer for help after crying out to the Lord for the past hour. This was the very thing I had wanted to be used in doing and see happen!

I told her the next day I would send them a check. The next day I went to write them a check and I thought this will take days to get there and they need the money now. So I went to western union to send it to them that day. When I got in the parking lot the thought came to me that if I sent them what I sent my friend yesterday, which also was the amount they needed for the parts, they would have nothing left over for food. Plus if the cost of the parts was more than what I was sending them they would not have enough. 

I felt God telling me to send more, but I reasoned with Him that I had already sent what I felt he put on my heart and this would be double plus more. I do not have a lot of money right now and this is a lot for me I told God. Interestingly now that I look back, I find it ironic that the amount I first was thinking might be more than God wanted me to give was actually less than half of what He was now asking me to give. This has again confirmed to me that I am not going to ever be more generous that God. I finally said I would to the Lord and I was excited to be used by God in such a bold way of faith. I also have since realized that just as Jesus says our heart is where our treasure is and as such moving our treasure will move our heart does in fact work. 

I felt a great deal of joy and my faith growing. I was giving out of love and I was not giving to get and did not care if I got anything back. Yet, I had a new level of faith that God was going to take care of me and provide even though I was giving a great deal away. I was not giving out of my abundance, but was giving out of a joy and love. 

I cannot claim to have started at that place though. Remember, only days before as I shared in my last blog entries I had to start with a $10 tip on a small meal to start moving my heart with my treasure. Then just days before when I gave my first gift after asking God who to give it to I thought I might be making a mistake and giving too much. Yet, here days later God had moved my faith to give more than double what I thought was more than He might ask me to give. My faith and my joy had grown in just days and I had witnessed God use me to deliver a miracle to a friend in need. This was exciting and I hope the beginning to new level of reliance and relationship and partnership with the Holy Spirit to be used by God in helping others and living a more impactful life for the Kingdom.

As I walked into the grocery store to use the Western Union I no longer had fear either. I felt God was leading me into a new adventure. When I got to the counter and I told the lady I wanted to send some money to a friend  she told me I could save $7 if I didn't have to have it there today and could have it there tomorrow for $7 less. I was tempted to do that because it would be $7 less to send. Then I thought no they need the money now and I should send it now. I also had to laugh that I was now looking at a $7 charge and considering delaying the sending of the money a day over $7. I did the same day delivery and then texted my friend that they could get it at western union. I thought that my lesson was over and that God had finished with this miracle all His purposes.

Yet, God was not done. He would soon show me something else and teach me something pretty profound and impactful. I will share what happened next in my next blog entry.

Do We As Christians Resist Miracles The Most?

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By Matt on October 30, 2009 12:18 PM 0 0 Vote 0 Votes
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''Where does the supernatural power of God have a real place? What difference would it make practically between the way we worked yesterday, and the way we would work today, and tomorrow? What difference would it make in the majority of Christians' practical work and plans. Aren't most plans laid out ahead of time? Isn't much work done by human talent, energy, and clever ideas? Where does the supernatural power of God have a real place?''

-Francis & Edith Schaeffer 

As I shared in my last blog entry saying "yes" to the Lord to give what I felt Him putting on my heart to give ended up being the easy part. After I said "yes" I expected the Lord to tell me right away who to help out. As I soon learned though seeking God to find out who specifically He wanted me to help became the hard part. 

I was specifically asking God who to give to and I was praying that when I did that God would confirm I had in fact heard from Him. I hoped the person I gave to to tell me some great story about how they had been praying for that specific amount. Then we would both know God had been at work and we had been in communication with Him that was heard and acted upon. I had put the money in the card shown in my last entry and wrote the following inside:

"God bless you. This is a gift to you. I have asked God who to give this to and I think you are the person he wants to have it."

I was not sure if the person I was going to give this to was going to be a Christian or not or if I would even know them, so I did not put my name in it as I wanted no credit from the person I gave it to. If the person knew me they would of course know who I am, but if it was a stranger I did not want them to feel they were to pay me back or know who I was, but that truly this was a gift God had spoken to me to give to them and my hope was that they were going to be in need for the amount I was giving them. 

With my hope being that the amount I was giving would be specifically the amount they were in need of. If then this was what God chose to work through they would more importantly than getting the money know that an all knowing and loving God knew their need and had spoken to them as well as provided their need. 

This of course requires actually asking, listening and hearing from God on my part. This was my heart and motive, to be listening and hearing from God and to be giving out of love. I believed that God would honor this and that the result would be a new reliance and deeper dependence on the Holy Spirit to be leading me.

I have heard stories of miracles like this from pastors and speakers, but few from people I knew personally and in my own life. As I shared in my last blog entry the pastor who shared of how his life was adventurous and passionate with a daily walk in which the Lord was doing great and mighty things in his life was what I have been yearning for and what I was seeking.

I also recently had it pointed out to me that most if not all the miracles in the Bible always started with a person doing something and then God made it a miracle. I can not think of one miracle God did in the Bible where He did not ask someone to do something first in obedience before he brought the miracle.

Now, of course what we expect and think God will do is rarely what happens as we thought it would or think it should. God also does not tend to repeat the miracles He does the same every time. He always does things better than we plan or hope for, but we do not always see that and of course often I think God tests us to see our faithfulness and our heart and motives. I also do not want to down play that the things we call miracles are going to be things we could have done without God. They should be things that we can clearly see God has done, although at first God may test us. If the first time things were not how I hoped I decided in advance I would not give up and I would keep faith that God was at work and I needed to simply continue and obey.

Nearly since the start of this ministry the quote above from the Schaeffer's has been one that I think of often and keep near me in this ministry and in my life. I have grown up around many great and loving people and now for nearly half of my life been in and around passionate lovers of God who have an on going relationship with the Lord. In my younger years I grew up in a church of people who approached faith from a more traditional way and there were examples of people serving God in Sunday School and Bible School and as usher's and such, but the study of the Bible and over all passion of people for the Lord and an understanding of a personal relationship with the Lord was not something taught or at least understood by me. There were no alter calls or prayers of asking Jesus to come into anyone's life and so I never really found assurance of my salvation. 

However, my entire life the expectation of miracles of any kind in church or in people I know has never been all that high. Now of course half of my life in more evangelical churches no one would ever say God does not do miracles or they do not believe God answers prayers, but the things prayed for and lack of specific bold prayers have never been a common place.

I myself have for a long time lived as well with a low expectation of miracles and only lately have I felt God getting my attention regarding this. I think that is why the Schaeffer's quote has long spoke to my heart and something I think we all should ask ourselves regularly.

I have recently in wondering this and this common theme on the Holy Spirit had multiple books, sermons and speakers all touch on it and add to it which has been much like a confirmation to me that God is at work in speaking something to me.

So a couple weeks ago I started to seek to take action. Actually, before I gave the card with the large gift away I started with a large tip. I had been thinking I want to give a very large tip to someone who God puts on my heart to give to. I noticed that I was seeking women waitressing lately who are pretty far along in their pregnancy and that must be hard on them. Perhaps God was wanting me to bless one of them.

It was not long after that I had a waitress who was pretty far along and about ready to pop when I was at breakfast with a friend. Instead of leaving a percentage of my meal for a tip, I left nearly the cost of my meal as a tip, which for me was a very large tip. I left before she could see the tip and was even a little anxious. Of course nothing happened since I left quickly and I do not know the impact it made on her to get such a large tip, but I have to wonder how much that brightened her day to get such a large tip.

The surprising thing was that after I left I felt an immense joy and I felt great. I had wondered if I would later feel like I had been unwise in spending my money, but I did not regret it and I felt that I had just done some Kingdom work. In fact it gave me a new level of faith and desire to go and act on giving the large gift God had put on my heart away to someone. Until I gave that tip I was not sure about giving the large gift away, but that small act of faith gave me a bigger level of faith to increase my act of faith for the large gift I had been thinking of giving away to someone.

I have learned that to practice the gift of giving and to learn to hear from God and ask to be used in delivering miracles that I don't have to start out big and do beyond what the Lord has built my faith up to. I can do for me what is a stretch and then as I see the Lord bless that, I can increase my step of faith the next time.

So the next big jump in giving that card away with a lot of money in it became very exciting for me. I began walking in stores and going to Christian bookstores asking God to show me who to give the card to with the cash. I would go after work and walk around praying silently for the Holy Spirit to show me who to give to. After a week of doing this I started to get a bit impatient and was telling God I want to be used and I am willing, but you are not speaking and telling me who to help.

Right now in reading this God may be speaking to you an amount to give to someone though you don't yet know who and it is likely for you a big amount and the ironic thing is perhaps like me, you are finding the hard thing to say yes to God and give away that amount. What you may find unusual is if you tell God yes, the person to give it to, He may not reveal to you for a week or more and a work happens in your heart. Instead of one of fear in giving and a reliance on your money or resource, your heart shifts to a reliance on God and a joy and excitement in wanting to know who God wants you to give it to. 

Start at the level of faith that is a stretch for you and ask God to help you grow in faith to work up to what you feel would be impossible for you to give. A new level of excitement and passion and adventure in being used to impact the Kingdom I believe awaits anyone who is simply willing to ask, listen and obey God in what He tells them to do.

Much like me you may have a fear of what if you hear God wrong or give too much. Just as the pastor who asked me that question, I ask you, do you think that you and an amount you think of to give, would be more generous than God would ask you to give? If you do then that in and of itself is something I encourage you to study in the Bible on God's generosity. God after all spared not even His only begotten Son to ransom you from eternal separation from him. When I was asked that question it helped me to see things from a perspective that freed me of that fear of giving too much. God wants us to give out of love and faith, not obligation or giving to get and that is the freedom we can have in following God in the gift of giving. To not feel guilt or fear, but to find joy and life in it.

Next, much like me you may have a fear that you will give it to the wrong person. How will you know when God speaks to you that you are to give it to someone? Those are good questions and will push you to listen, seek and want to hear from God. I myself was not 100% certain when I gave the card with money to the person God put on my heart to give to or the tip to the waitress. But I was more certain than I had been with anyone else and I obeyed God and gave. I put my faith in God that He would not lead me to give to the wrong person because my heart was earnestly seeking to give to the right person that God wanted me to give to in obedience to God.

Now, all that to say that what I expected next was not what happened. I thought this person I gave the card and money would later call me and share how they had been praying for help and this was an answer to their prayer since I knew them. I thought God would give me a great story and confirm my act of faith.

Instead I did not hear anything back that night or the next day from them, but got a text from a Godly friend of mine that her and her husband's car had broke down and they had only $6 in their checking account and did not get paid for another week or two.

Almost immediately the enemy was quick to attack with the thought "you gave to the wrong person."

This is why it is so important to be walking in the lifemap model. The renewal of the mind to be able to discern and see the attacks of the enemy are critical to walking with God. Imagine if I let the enemy trick me into thinking I heard wrong and messed up and I listened to that condemnation. I might have stopped this journey with God and missed out on the joy and relationship and blessings God has for me from this journey.

I knew that was not a thought from God. I knew I had given in faith and obedience as best I knew how the day before and so I prayed for my friend and her husband. I was at peace because as much as I would have liked to help this friend, I had done my part the day before to partner with God and helped another person. Though I did not get the confirmation back from the friend I have given to that I had expected, I chose to trust that God was using me and that He had a plan in action.

But, God was not done. 

In my next blog entry I will share what happened next.

Can We Experience Miracles Every Day Dependant On God?

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By Matt on October 29, 2009 2:16 PM 1 0 Vote 0 Votes
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A few weeks ago I was listening to a sermon and one of my favorite pastor's in preaching said "Some of you feel your life has lost passion, excitement and adventure in your daily walk with God. I do not have a dull life, but one full of amazing miracles in which God continues to use me in amazing ways and do exiting things in my life. He has long been doing this in my life and I tell you the only thing I am doing to experience and live this kind of life is asking, listening and obeying what God tells me to do."

When he said that it spoke to something in my heart because that is not how I have been feeling nor my walk with God like for quite some time. 

It was also one of many things in a series of a common messages God was speaking to me regarding the Holy Spirit and hearing, living and walking in relationship with Him, the Son and the Father. There have been times in my past when a common theme or subject would be repeatedly addressed or spoken to me regarding the same theme or message from many sources of whom had no connection with each other and of whom did not know what I was going through or thinking about. Needless to say God has been getting my attention.

I began to think I have had some slow times financially and while I had been seeking to tithe on my income, my tithe had not been a lot of money because of the reduction in my finances. It is more to us when our income is less, but the amount to help others and the kingdom is not as much and I want to be a kingdom impacter.

I began to think of the times I have heard of love offerings and sacrificial offerings above and beyond the tithe. About two years I had a heart change in my thinking towards tithing and giving and I understood the purpose of giving and tithing or the right motive is not in giving to get. That completely misses the motive and heart behind giving - for tithing and giving is a sign of the condition of the heart and it is something in the right motive that is done out of a deep love and appreciation for what God has done for us. It is not something we are to do out of obligation or to try and move God to give us something more, but to do out of obedience in the tithe because we love Him and in love offerings because we are that moved in love for him.

This made a big impact in my life a few years ago and gave me more peace in tithing and made it much easier to do, but giving love offerings and sacrificial gifts had remained something I struggled with and I had fears about. 

Yet in hearing stories of people who felt God tell them to give something to someone and then upon doing it hearing amazing stories of how they had been in need of that exact amount sounded exciting and pretty amazing. To hear from God to give to another a specific amount and then to do so in love and then learn that person had been praying for that specific amount not only provided that need by God's providence for that person, but both the giver and receiver would know they had been in direct confirmed communication with God.

I have long waited for God to speak to me and tell me what to do. Recently I have felt God leading me to start asking Him to use me and volunteering to be used. So I began asking God what he wanted me to do. When I started to think God was telling me to give a set amount of money I was not certain I should and I wondered what if the amount I thought I was to give was more than God really wanted me to give. 

What if I heard wrong and gave more and then came up short because I heard God wrong. It was not long after that I heard a pastor address that very question and his response was that to have that question is to assume that we some how would be more generous than God would be. That was to me an answer to my question. It was unlikely that I would be more generous than God and in the event I in the right motive and heart gave more than He had asked, I also know I cannot out give God. 

Again, though remember that our motive in giving must be in doing so out of love and not in giving to get more back. God knows our heart and our motives, we can't give more than we feel God has called us to with the idea that then we will get a lot of money back because the result we want in that may not be what God provides back as a blessing. While God often does give back more than we can give, we should do so in the heart and motive that we do so in love and expect nothing back. Even though we are very much likely to be given more back and in regarding tithing God does promise to take care of us and provide for us in our obedience to tithing. In regards to love offerings though I think we need to make sure our hearts are in the right place in doing them.

One thing that love offerings and sacrificial giving when done in the right motives also tend to do is push us out of being able to rely on ourselves and truly needing God to provide.

When I finally came to a point where I told God I would give the amount on my heart to give to who He wanted me to give it to I expected Him to tell me that day who to give it to. What I soon learned was that what I thought was the hard part in deciding to give what God told me to give, was actually the easy part. It would be over a week before God put someone on my heart to give the gift to and confirmed it, although I still had some doubts when doing it, but did so out of faith and love that God knew who I was going to give it to long before I did and got me to them.

In my next blog entry I will share my experience and what happened upon giving the gift to the person God put on my heart to give it to. I also would like to thank the friend who encouraged me to blog about this and what I am learning. I did not feel at the time I had learned or experienced enough to share about this, but I am seeking to do this from a student approach and bringing my readers with me instead of doing this as a teacher. I invite you to share your experiences and join in with me in seeking to experience daily miracles dependant on God too.

New Proposed Ministry Logo

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By Matt on October 15, 2009 10:13 PM 0 0 Vote 0 Votes
dlmlogoidea.jpgThanks to a generous new friend of the ministry I have met we finally have a proposed graphic logo for Desired Life Ministries. I wanted to share the proposed graphic logo and the new font for the text in the logo to get feedback from everyone. 

Please submit your feedback and leave comments on your thoughts on the logo and the font. The idea was that we would have a graphic logo and create it so that we could have the horizontal or vertical view of the logo and font for DLM.

There is a lot of thought that went into the logo design and it is full of meaning. At the first glance it may look like a mountain view with a sun behind it in a circle and an odd choice for the color of the mountain.

The meaning behind the logo is as follows:

The mountain is broken in two and the smaller mountain a heart color because the first part of the life map is the restoration of the heart. There is not a typical shape of a heart in the logo because no two hearts are identical. We live in a world of fallen and broken people who are in need of restoration of the heart. There is a sun in the logo to symbolize light and revelation that plays a part in the renewal of the mind of which is the second part of the life map model of the ministry. Then of course there is the obvious mountain of which symbolizes vision of which is the third part of the life map model. Just as you come closer to any mountain you begin to see more detail and more of what is there is revealed so is the meaning of the logo. There are two parts to the mountain that also symbolize the two phases of vision. The smaller part being general direction and the larger in specific vision within calling. 

All of this is within a circle of which symbolizes the trinity. There are 3 shades of dark grays in the circle and yet they make one circle. All of the life map takes place within a relationship with God. The logo has been placed in a circle to symbolize that. The logo has broken parts because the life map is a life long process and a initial process. It will not be complete in this life time which is symbolized in the logo shape. There may very well be even more within the logo too. As the process has moved along and we have worked on different logo ideas these thoughts and ideas are what have thus been revealed for the logo and meaning behind it.

I would like to extend a very special thank you to the graphic designer who did this logo design work for the ministry and donated the time to do it. If you have any graphic design needs please send us a email to be put in contact with the designer of the logo. While the logo has not yet been finalized as the new "official" logo for DLM it most likely will become the new logo. Please leave your feedback and comments and anything you see in the logo and meaning in it.
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