DLM History: August 2009 Archives

It was March 26, 2006 on a Sunday night and it was the one year anniversary of Desired Life Ministries. I and some allies put on the first ministry vision dinner that marked and celebrated the first year of being in ministry. It's hard to believe that was over three years ago.
Here is a picture of most of the people who were there that night:
dlmministrydinner.gifWhen going through some old entries I found the one from the day after the ministry vision dinner. I thought I would post what I wrote about the dinner on March 27th.

Here is the entry I made about the dinner the next day:

The dinner went amazing! God showed up in a big way and many people were deeply touched by the night. Afterwards many people came up to talk to each speaker and comments such as I was not prepared for this and I was not expecting to be so touched. The night's theme of the faithfulness of God could not have been any better, it was perfect, despite the many things that went wrong and the hard time it was to prepare for it. We all felt intense spiritual attack the week leading up to the dinner. I was feeling very discouraged, Rachel was feeling like she could not do it and was feeling like she should cancel and then the day before she came down with a soar throat and could hardly talk without pain. Yet the day of the event she was better and able to sing and talk all the way until the end of the night, when it started hurting again.

Rachel also lost her notes in the car, her and Luke went and searched everywhere or them, but could not find them. Though we found them after the night was over in the car, she doesnt know how they didnt see them the first time. Yet, during that time when she was nervous, Luke was able to really encourage her that it would be ok and she was given a peace. She also did a great job with her talk and covered all the points on her notes by memory! She thought she probally forgot something, but was amazed that she had covered it all! Josh had been feeling God press this upon his heart and had only 3 hours of sleep the night before. He also had felt the enemy attacking him this past week.

Joe who was going to play the guitar couldnt play as his guitar broke a hour before the dinner. So Janell and Rachel had to practice before hand on the piano. Josh in praying what to talk about on the mind, felt it confirmed again when I put down the renewal of the mind and that was what God had given him for a title of his talk. Then a lady at the dinner was shocked when Josh talked on the 3 lusts of the eye and the verses God laid on his heart for his talk, were some of the ones along with a study of the lusts of the eye that she had just felt God leading her to start studying too.

Then at the end of the night, Rachel was protected from what could have been an assult or a car jacking with her in the car. She was waiting in the car in the passenger side by the front of the hotel downtown and a shady man walked up to the car and started looking at her, he looked like he was not all there and was in a haze. He came up to the window and was looking at her and then looked down at the keys in the car with the car running. She was tense and her heart was beating frantically, but she froze and couldnt move. She wisphered out Jesus help, and the man walked away slowly to the back of the car, but then he came back again and he started to reach his hand in the car, and then froze as she whispered praying for Jesus to help and he then pulled his hand back out and walked to the back of the car at which point then he came back again (she was still frozen and couldnt move) and she whispered Jesus again as the man put his hand on the door knob (the doors were not locked and the window down) and then he let go and walked to the back of the car again. Finally she felt the Holy Spirit tell her grab the keys and get out and go to the front door, so she did and then my brother and friends came out the front door. She was very relieved to see them!

God started going deep into the hearts of those there and renewing minds, and a lot of ministry took place in peoples lives as so many came up to give us all feedback. I also had no sound system until just hours before the dinner, and was about to buy a dinky little karaoke machine at Radio Shack when my friend Jasen called and he had found a sound system. So I went and got it and got it all hooked up just minutes after people started arriving.

I managed to figure out how to record the night, and am working on the CD for it now so we also captured all the night on CD! (Since then I have put these on a podcast and they soon will be available online).

We came in just $30 over budget for the night too! I was thinking it was going to be more than that. And we also at one point were 30-40 minutes behind schedule, but God took control and we got it all in at just 10 minutes over time!

One person came up and said God has moved their heart to donate their entire next pay check for their new job and a few others that they were going to make a donation shortly. It was a very encouraging night.

I was able to also get a 8 minute message/testimony from Max on tape from him in Russia, so everyone got to hear from Max there too!

I had so many people come up and say the night went so perfectly and was just amazing and all I can say is that God showed up and as we came to celebrate a night of God's faithfulness...He loved coming to show Himself very faithful in weaving it all together despite the many things that went wrong in planning it. In fact if all had gone perfectly as I planned it, it would still not be as amazing as it ended up being as God did so much! 

How It All Began

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In March of 2005 God began to get my attention and started pressing upon my heart a calling and a vision for a ministry. To be quite honest I was not certain what exactly that calling and vision was specifically at that time as I only had some general ideas. 

Many of my passions for young men's ministry were being awakened and drawn out by God at that time and the calling on my life in that area was increasingly being stirred by God pulling on my heart. That was not the first time though God had pulled on my heart in that area as they were pulled on in college to start a Christian Fraternity at Kansas State University. The difference was this time the calling was stronger and on a larger scale. Young men's ministry has long been a passion of mine and one in which I just come alive in helping brothers come closer to God. Over the years it has also been one of the most attacked areas of my life and with it pain, but the joys most certainly have made it all worth it.

What I didn't expect or know at the time was that many of my other passions would also draw out in this calling. The great thing about God is that He loves to surpass our expectations and He loves to bless us. Though not always in the timing we want and not without hardships and trials and obstacles, but if our heart stays after Him He does these things in our life. I have many that are waiting to be fulfilled, but many I have already been given and more than I had expected. Some are gone for a season and some may not return, but God loves to bless us and my prayer is that I will not forget better days are yet to come for those of us who love God with our whole heart and follow Him. I know that can be very hard to believe and hold onto and  for some harder than others, but it is none the less true. 

In the early days of the calling to this ministry I was perfectly content in staying within what I felt was just outside of what I was capable of doing. That was my own attempt to protect my own pride so as to reduce the chances of failing yet again. Yet, as I began praying and seeking God's direction in what He was calling me to start with this ministry and the vision that I began to get what I understood expanded. I wasn't ready nor was my faith at the point to step out for any more at that time. Then after a week of God speaking clearly to me 5 days or so in a row I finally took action and stepped out to go for this vision and calling God had put on my heart a month or so later. I wish I had journaled more then to have the exact dates and things God spoke to me recorded as I have since then forgot many of them.

There in life are often points of no return. While it is true that with God's grace sometimes we can return to those points often there is no return after those points and they are forks in the road. These are the times when wisdom and courage and faith are so very critical to finding the right path to walk down in our life with God.

M point of no return was when I dropped a few hundred support letters to friends and family in the mail box in downtown Olathe, Kansas. That was when for me there was no turning back and if I failed I failed, but I earnestly believed God had called me to step out in faith for this ministry. In the things in life you go for if you tell others when you go for it - it is much harder to quit when the going get's tough. This is very true when you tell hundreds of people in a support letter. What if no one responds I used to wonder, but thankfully people did respond and support began to come and a great adventure began.

You may have had God press something on your heart or you are now feeling that yourself. God is wise in never giving us more than we can handle or are ready for. You don't have to fear getting in over your head or being incapable of being used to do what He calls you to do. God won't give you more than you are ready for or can handle, but sometimes you will feel you are close to the point of breaking. You might even break, but God will not leave you nor will He forget you. Keep after Him and He will restore you. Rarely is anyone used to do great things for God who has not first been broken. 

My faith and scope of vision have increased as I have taken each step of faith towards what God has put in front of me to go for. What became of the calling and vision as it grew is what was birthed to become Desired Life Ministries. That name today has with it joys and pain. I have learned a lot and been used to bless others through this ministry, but I have also had areas of my heart that were hurt on this walk into ministry. If you feel called to ministry though the only real reason that really ever drives you into it is not the joys or the pains, but simply you can do nothing other than walk into what God calls you to do. Such a calling awakens a wooing and force of God within you that compels you to go forward in that calling. This is why to enter into phase two of the life map in vision you can not do so without having been through phase two of the heart and mind. You can visit the ministry home page to read about the life map model I developed to better understand that process.

What this ministry is all about and the purpose and vision of the ministry will become more clear as I begin to share more through this blog. The ministry after this time of my sabbatical at its core and that vision has not changed, but over the past few years I have gained wisdom on how to reach that vision with God leading me. God is in charge and I leave Him to mold it into what it is to become as I seek to simply paint the picture of what it is as best I can as He reveals it to me. What I once struggled with was the acceptance and praise from those around me and those who did not understand or support my efforts, but now I know it is not something to let hold us back.

This is not to be a ministry where you remain in the pews as merely an observer. It is a ministry that seeks to pull you in as a participant into a process in which God uses to bring about irrevocable life long change in your heart mind and soul. You are a man or a woman of whom God has a purpose, a plan and a specific vision to fulfill them and it is my hope you will find your path to that through the help of this ministry.

The End of a Sabatical

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It has been a few years since there has been any real movement with Desired Life Ministries. To be quite honest I was intentionally quiet as I let the ministry fade into the background while secretly hoping few would actually notice. Let me explain what lead up to that decision. 

A few years ago I began feeling God leading me into a time of a sabbatical from ministry and I had with that a since of joy and pain. Joy because my heart needed refuge from two years of running full force into ministry as best I knew and pain because I felt a since of failure. Such an outcome was exactly what I feared almost from the moment God began to speak to my heart in the early days of this calling. You see I had felt a calling before in college and failed. So I was not about to start out on this new adventure unless I was certain beyond all doubt that was God leading me to do this.

In college I felt God stir my heart to start a Christian Fraternity at Kansas State University and after about two years and a lot of work and effort with only a few interested and a trip out to California to meet with national chapter leaders it ended in failure with our request for a new charter being declined by nationals. I was actually glad nationals had turned us down because I could then point to them as the reason for failure, but that didn't within me do away with the feeling of failing. 

When one fails having felt what they earnestly believed to be God calling them to do something the question always arises "was it really God behind it all"? Perhaps you have felt God call you to something in the past and the outcome was what you saw as failure and that was what you feared going into it. Having experienced that twice in ministry and multiple times in business now at the age of 29 I can tell you that fear of failure cripples most men and women. Jesus's disciples and his followers felt everything was over and lost when Jesus was crucified, but at we know that was not the end. 

I have learned and as you may or may not have learned as well - there is no failure until you give up and quit. Joesph felt a calling and God gave him a great vision, but it was many years and many hardships until that was fulfilled. It is through our failures that we gain the wisdom to enter into the fullness of what God calls us too. That is a very hard process at times and it can last years as has been my case.

One thing that has helped me is to remember the only valid fear in life is a healthy fear of God. Fear of failure is not a valid reason to not do something. Interestingly I read in a book by a young entrepreneur this year how often that which we fear doing is what we most need to do. Even the secular world has grasped the wisdom of facing fear and overcoming it as a requirement to do great things. Of course just because we have fear to do something doesn't mean we should do it, but if wisdom and discernment and God begins leading us to do something we must press past our fear.

That is the journey and the process that brings me to this moment in time.

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